amen and amen.
(also about the latest show I did yaaay)
You know how you read about people who were musical prodigies at like, three years old? Or you know people who are pretty much whizzes at some particular subject, or who just have an amazing knack for something, even if they don't know it? You know how some people just find their niche in the world and realize it's what they want to do forever and ever because it's just what they're meant to do?
A year and a half ago I looked at those people and sighed a little. I think I've probably said this before, but I had this innate desire to be exceptionally good at something. Not just moderately good at a lot of things. Because yeah, I sing a little and play a little piano and speak a little French and started going to college when I was freaking fifteen years old and do photography to the best of my not-very-extensive ability.
A year and a half ago I was talking with a friend about that--wanting to have that niche, that thing that was exceptional. That friend was my fellow actress in Emma, my second show and first lead role. I will never discredit how much I learned during the entirety of that production. I don't even know if I realized it at the time, and I'm not sure I could tell you in so many words what exactly it was that taught me so much. I know I grew as an actress, that's for sure. And you know what I realized? I realized that I was totally and completely in love with theatre and that suddenly...suddenly I felt like I had a thing. A niche. And it was mine, not me trying to play or photograph as well as the next person and constantly knowing it wasn't up to par. Theatre and I just...clicked. IT WAS LOVE GUYS.
I still consider Emma to be one of my greatest experiences as an actress, and since then I've just wanted to do more and more and more. Seriously--if I'm not involved with a show for a long enough time, it...it's problematic. I start to miss theatre a lot. I just want to do it forever.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is the first show I've done outside of the small community theatre I started out with, and it's been a growing experience in a completely different but really great way. It's different from anything I've ever done, considering that it was theatre in the round (audience on all 4 sides with the stage in the middle) and that it was really conceptual and minimalistic. I played Veruca Salt (forever cast as the bratty girl) (but those are the most fun to play) and I came to love how diverse our cast was, from theatre majors to younger kids to those who had never acted before to those in it for the love of the game (meeeeeee). I got some great encouragement about continuing on with theatre in the future, and just...GUYS there is no better feeling than after a smooth opening night when you've finished your first show and you're high-fiving and hugging your cast members and people file by telling you good job and yet it hardly even matters what other people think because you yourself love it so terribly much that you could burst from all the happy. I want to marry theatre, is that weird?
Anyways all that to say that Charlie is over and God is good and theatre is my favorite, favorite thing. Here, have some pictures, onstage and backstage, instagram style.
But before that please someone tell me you got the Mary Poppins reference in the title.