Monday, May 27, 2013

buddies for life

Anyone whose brother has ever left them would probably agree with me that it's cruel and unusual punishment.  You see, it happened first with my sister.  Up and left me to live out of the country for long periods at a time, moved out and left me with a room to myself for the first time ever.  And I'm not saying that wasn't entirely weird and sad and rude and unprecedented, because it was and is and will continue to be.  But all through those times, I had Grant beside me.

You see, Grant and I weren't always best of friends.  He and Cassie and I all fit within a two and a half year time span, so growing up we were, of course, very close.  But there was also a time when the clique suddenly became me and Cassie, and the little brother fell to the bottom of the line-up.  Those years make me a little sad to think of.  And I'm not sure when it happened, but at one point, Grant and I became really good friends again.  It's not like we ever weren't friends, but we just...clicked.  Grant gets my sense of humor like few do, and he's one of the weirdest people I know, but I love him to death.  We both like people and like being funny and he lets me hang out with his friends (who are consequently some of my favorite people) and introduces me to good music.  We can hang out and be awkward together and play with Brooke and Tess and take random Starbucks runs and sometimes I'd ask him about girls and sometimes he'd ask me about boys and we'd make fun of each other just because and he'd teach me to play ukulele and on my bad days he would come and sit on my floor with me and try to make me laugh.

And when Cassie left, we bonded on a different level.  Because suddenly we were the two oldest kids in the house, and our social events meshed a little more and same with our music taste and we did things together more frequently.  I don't think I realized even then how much I loved that.

About a week ago, Grant and I were driving to see the midnight premiere of Star Trek: Into Darkness, and he was just switching on some music in the truck when he said, "I'm glad you're with me, Jenn." "Going to the movie?" "Just in general.  I'm glad you're with me.  You're my buddy.  Let's be buddies for life, okay?"  It had been a really rough day and I'm not sure if he saw me tearing up as I drove.  "Okay."

That kid.  He's leaving me to spend a couple months in England.  I'm so so excited for him and this opportunity and the incredible experiences he's going to have and the people he's going to meet and the memories he's going to make.  I'm also a little jealous, but that's beside the point.  For the first time, I'm left at home without my two best friends in life.

I dropped Grant off at the airport today.  Honestly, it's day one and I'm already feeling slightly lonely.  I cried a little right before he disappeared behind security, which seems silly because goodness, he'll be back in August.  But I'm going to miss him so much.  I'm going to miss sharing this summer with him, like we shared so much last summer, traveling Europe and then back to our adventures at home.

Graaaant.  Granny, Graham Cracker, Grantina Eugina.  Have the time of your life.  I love you.  I can't wait to see you again.  Let's be buddies for life.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

a vlog in which jenn is excited

I'm convinced there is no way to title a blog post with a vlog in it without putting vlog in the title.  I tried.

So here you are: a vlog in which I obviously try to fit the word "excited" or "exciting" in as many times as possible.  No seriously.  You will also meet one of my cats and hear me ramble about auditions and talk about graduating and also what I'm up to this week.


Linky link links!
my first vlog (heheh)

I also was going to put this in the video but a) I forgot and b) it ended up long anyway, but at the TeenPact state class I staffed I met a girl who read my blog (hi Olivia!) and she didn't know me before in real life/didn't know I would be her staffer.  whaaaat.  I asked her if I was different in real life and she said not really so I think that's a good thing.  Anyway it was (wait for it) exciting.

In other news, as I briefly mentioned, yeah, my good-for-nothing travelling sister left me again for Guatemala last week. sob.

Like I said in the video, tell me about your lives!  See you all when I get back. xo

Friday, May 17, 2013

summer bucket list

I've been compiling a list full of things I want to do this summer, things that are actually possible for me to do within these next few months.  I want to check every one of these off by the end of the summer.  Basically I want life to be exciting and adventurous and intentional, even in the small things.
  • go swing dancing at nyohs
  • take a weekend roadtrip (or two or three)
  • start my day in the Word, every day
  • get a different haircut
  • make people mixtapes for no reason
  • send letters for no reason
  • find a four leaf clover
  • find favorite photography spots
  • do vocal exercises more regularly
  • take my little sisters on little outings
  • learn simple piano and uke songs that I can sing along to
  • read harry potter
  • read more c.s. lewis
  • read the great gatsby
  • read life of pi
  • read through pieces of les mis again
  • actively choose joy
  • skype my absent brother and sister regularly
  • skype/call my absent friends more
  • invest in listening to people instead of always trying to have something to say
  • be online less and selflessly present more
  • get ice cream from a musical ice cream truck
  • die to self more and more
  • write poetry and short stories
  • journal often
  • focus on quality over quantity in my friendships, work, and life
  • get photos in a photo booth with someone
  • discover new musicals
  • go to the theatre and bring friends too
  • go to a drive-in movie
  • consistently pray for people
  • finish sorting/editing/blogging my europe pictures
  • watch a tv show (suggestions welcome)
  • stretch daily
  • drink lots more water
  • ride a ferris wheel
  • go to at least one midnight movie premiere
  • spend more time outside
What do you want to do this summer?

Monday, May 13, 2013

a walk in the park

It was mother's day and she wanted photos with her kiddos.  Off we trekked to the park, even though it was a bit chilly (we got starbucks afterward to make up for it).  I'm not biased at all, but I think I have a really pretty mom.  And I mean besides that, she is literally the best woman I know.  She inspires and challenges me.  And yeah, frustrates me too sometimes, but I guess that comes with the territory.  She actively puts God first, has always been there for me, and is really honestly truly my hero.  Love you much, mommy.