First the original part, because it's a bit easier--God has definitely blessed each one of us with unique gifts, and I want to the best of my ability to use those to glorify him who gives me breath each day. I struggle with "being myself" because I'm still growing into myself (and I'm pretty sure I will be for the rest of my life). I have a tendency to focus on fitting in and worrying about what other people think of me, when in reality, the only approval I need to be concerned about is God's. So I want to be me, to be original, to be the one-of-a-kind person God made me, all and only living for him.
Now, shall we tackle the unoriginal part?
I don’t want to be original. Shocking, perhaps, I know. I read a blog post once by Mike Donehey, the leader of one of my favorite bands, Tenth Avenue North. Funny thing is, I’ve read a good number of Mike’s posts (and forgotten nearly as many), but this one particularly struck me and I’ve never forgotten it. The band had just released their first album, and Mike had been busy reading reviews of their work. And what was his conclusion? He didn’t want to be original.
Why? Well, Mike had a revelation: nothing is new under the sun.
Jesus is the truth--the absolute, eternal truth--not the newest, “most relevant” thing the world has to offer. I don’t want to go after the “new best thing.” I want to seek the One who made it all, who is the best thing himself. And the gospel of the loving grace of my Savior sure isn’t new. So if I’m saying anything that is new (or original), I’m not speaking that truth because it’s been existent since the before the beginning of time.
Oh, I feel like I’m not making sense at all. But maybe it has helped you understand just a little better where I'm coming from with this blog--title and all.